Lately I've been dealing with a lot of mixed emotions towards friends, family, school, life post-undergrad, work, etc. and its as crazy as people say lol. I feel like there are very few people who I can talk to about what I'm going through because at some point no one understands how I feel because they've never walked my path. Either the person lending an ear is still in school, just working, or is content with their everyday life and that's far from my plans. The other day I heard on the radio to watch the Steve Harvey's Tearful Testimony on YouTube (look it up). Once I watched it, I fell in love! There this man was saying exactly how I feel and I don't know him from Adam! Now a big issue he discussed is the way that Christians treat one another and how some churches have become so reluctant to accepting people that aren't all "holy holy".
I have always fought becoming that kind of person because 1. It makes people turn away from the one thing they need, God. 2. It completely goes against what God has sent the people of the church to do and 3. I know my struggles and I am no better than any one person because WE ALL FALL SHORT OF THE GLORY OF GOD. I think it's sad when someone can stick up their nose at someone else because the individual may not be living right. We all struggle with our own sin everyday! Some may not be as "severe" as others but at the end of the day sin holds no weight, they are all the same when we have to be judged. I've seen the "holy rollers" on campus turn their nose up to others in disgust but go to their boyfriend or girlfriends room and scream their name from the highest mountains during sex LOL. Sorry, I got a little graphic but it's real.
I try my best not to judge anyone because I know I deal with a lot mentally that some people may never know or see. I may look like I have it all together but I don't (I promise). People are like cars, just because some look shiny and brand new doesn't mean there isn't anything wrong under the hood. Don't judge a book by its cover! We as saved people have got to open the doors to those who may still be going through but have the best intentions in mind. We are the chosen people to guide others to the lord. For those who may be having trouble finding a church or people in Christ who are genuine don't fret great churches and people of God DO exist but remember: There is no perfect church. A church is made of imperfect people BUT we all come together to worship a perfect God and HE is the one who will never leave no forsake you. (That girl droppin knowledge!) LOL.
So, the moral of the story is to love one another. Reach out to those who need it and do not let the actions of others steer you away from where you're supposed to be! We all have to get to heaven one day and you can't say "Lord well Banocka rolled her eyes at me and called me a lying heffa so I never went to church after that" because Banocka won't be speaking for you at the gates. (Sorry for the random name, idk either.) Pray and build a relationship with God. Try your best to live right and don't forget to forgive yourself when things go wrong because the lord always forgives you.
Love, Peace, and Hair Grease.